Decision making is a very difficult thing to do especially when it comes to studies and relationships... maybe these are kinds of situation that all ppl will have to go thru... but i think goin thru it is quite tough... at times, u might think u did the right decision, but then in another time u might think u actually do wrongly... Humans are always contradicted to their own choices... but then once you accept it u shld not have the mindset to change at all, or else you might end up with nothing at all...

Feeling funny y i will write these, jus some recent feelings i had for some situation... so thinking thru... i might regret wat i did... haiz... but din have the courage to change wat it might be goin to happen...

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Hehe... Today very fun... Actually is the last lesson for the MediaCorp Speech n Drama, went to work there... to replace someone... ppl might think i siao... how come take 2 jobs at a time... hehe... crazy for money mah... no one to support me... lolx... anyway, today the kids are so cute and fun... they actually very nice and polite at the end of the lesson... they actually say good bye to us and also take pics with us... next term, i will sure go back n work there... because the kids are really nice and cute... feel so happy working there... maybe because of the kids ba... keke...

Argh... Idiotic, mad, crazy, stupid... i made in a process of breaking down liao... lolx... so irritated and frustrated abt this person behaivour... so wat if he is a "CCNP", so wat if he is very well-liked by the engineers... does it made him so superior from us, although we are in the same batch of INC... blehz...

Actually passed me the list yesterday, but then because of my email problem, i gave him another email to sent the list... but till today morning, he did not do it... he only did it when i reminded him again this morning... then in the afternoon, he came and tell me that he need it by tomolo... omg, it is a 1000+ devices list... and i only done 300+... left with 700+ and it is already half of the day liao... then he actually decided to start from the bottom... so i was actually quite relieved... was doing all the while, when 1 of my friends actually went in to the control room and saw that guy actually watching anime... wat the... i m doing the list and he is watching anime... grrr... then after that my other friend went in and saw him seeing forums... i m already frustrated then... as i have nt really finished half of the list, i decided to do OT, together with Wee Liat and Eugene... Went in to the room to ask how much have he done, so that i can roughly estimate the number Wee Liat and Eugene can start doing... then i saw him surfing net... Argh~!!!... Did till 7.15pm, we decided to go home liao... keep our things, went into the control room to keep the things, n he actually say "Fiona, thanks for reminding me, i actually forgot about it..." Diao... wat the... he is such a idiot... that made me feel so idiot or a fool... argh... i make sure this type of things do not happen to me again...

BAD BAD DAY.... Anyway, i dun wan to mention names... but i write this entry is jus to let out my anger...

First day of work, and i felt bored abt it liao... lolx... Went to NCShub to settle some documents for access card and also some pledge form, then sat down there for like 3hrs, before the boss say go to NUS better than sitting down here do nothin... so i made my way to NUS... long journey sia... it takes me abt 1hr plus to reach there... reaching there, went to have lunch with the rest... then later we went to forum to take a look at the magazines... then we made our way back to the center... then Eugene taught me the things that i have to do there, then after that we started to slack... search for universities, look at forums, blogs and blah blah... all the way till 6pm... lolx... boring lo... but then because i dun have labtop so i also felt boring... but thinking of everyday have to bring labtop all the way to NUS, haiz... sian lo... so heavy...

After work, went to Ang Mo Kio to meet up with Jessica, Jack, Jie Larp, Ying Larp, Tee Tong, Jonathan and Ahmad for dinner as well as celebrating Jie Larp, Ying Larp birthday and Tee Tong belated birthday... as i reach early, i went to buy the cake for them... and Jack suggested to have some writings on the cake, but then the names too long, so we decided to put "Happy Birthday JL, YL, TTT... lolx... cute cake... Went home at abt 10pm because the next day still have to work... Hope tomolo can have more things to do ba...

Today is a great day for me... because my family and relatives actually had a big gathering @ Pasir Ris Park for picnic... keke... I like this type of gathering... Of course, each family have to prepare at least some delicious food for the picnic... but for my family, we actually jus made our own drinks and also brought some cakes and fruits... while my aunt prepared curry chicken and fried bee-hoon, then my elder aunt brought biscuits and snacks from Malaysia...

Started out with fetching my aunt @ Sengkang, as i m driving, and i din drive to Sengkang before so it is quite exciting... keke... learning new route... lolx... then after tat we went to Pasir Ris Park... As usual, we were the first to arrive... lolx... but in abt the next 15 mins, another of my aunt arrived... then followup with others... and as usual my sis and me would play with the kids... and the kids actually brought things to play... so cool... we had soccer, kite-flying and also sandcastle-making... keke... so fun... we played till abt 7pm, then we played firework sticks... at abt 8pm, we made our way home...

Fetched my aunt staying @ Sengkang home, and we also went to her home to have tea and take a look at the place... the kids were cute, they actually anxiously brought their photo albums for us to take a look... lolx... At abt 9pm, finished seeing the photos, we decided to make our way home, because tomolo my sis is starting her sch while me goin to work liao... haiz... no more slacking at home liao...

Actually wanted to go for New Body lesson, but ended up with flu and abit of sore throat so did not want to go... but at abt 12pm i met Joanna n Jessica, and they suggested to come to my house and have lunch together with watching a movie... Joanna suggested to watch "Saw" so we jus followed on... we bought our meal and go to my house... Reaching my home, i showed them some secondary school's life photos... so cute and also funny... then after that we had our lunch before we started the movie... OMG, it is damm gross and bloody... i hate that show...

Received a letter from Ngee Ann Poly, it is regarding the Graduation Ceremony... dunno if alot of my course mates will be goin or not... hope so ba... but then still need to wear till so formal... haiz...

Hey, I m back~!!... Fun and enjoyable... also met alot of friends there... wanted to write wat we did... but i think that's too much for me to type... i will jus emphasize on some events...

1st day:
I and Joanna went check in to the cruise... then there are photographers, whom took pics of us, and say that we are actually sisters... omg, do we look alike, i dun think so sia... lolx... then after that we went to our room to settle our belongings before we made a trip ard the cruise to know the place well... had lots of photographs taken... din really changed much since the last time i came, but then i think with addition rooms like mahjong room, library (with computers at the rate of $0.33/min... so ex) and etc... if i m not wrong la... then we had dinner at the Chinese Restaurant where they serve great food... cool sia... we also tried out Tarot cards reading... seems so not real, but worth the try la... we also went to Casino, but then was stopped by the security to check our ICs... lolx... they say we look like 17 yrs old... hahaha... actually nothing much... jus see them play... We get to watch recent movie, National Treasure... nice... ended the day at abt 1am ba... then we went to sleep to prepare for the next day activity...

2nd Day:
Reached Penang at abt 12noon... the cruise din actually stopped at the port by in the middle of the mainland, Malaysia and Penang Island, then we took a small ferry boat to the port in batches... then we will get into the coaches that was arranged for us to our selected tour... at abt 8pm we went back to the cruise... then had our dinner, then went to watch the cre show - Beyond Broadway... after the show we tried Bingo... and i almost won... i was the remainder 3 for a game... haiz... then we go to pub to have cocktail, grasshopper, it tasted terrible... lolx... after that we went to watch movie, House of Fury...

3rd Day:
We had to wake up very early to go to Phuket... the tour actually starts at 8.15am... we went to many shopping centers, had dinner at a thai buffet restaurant and we also went to Patong Beach, the one that was actually attacked by the Tsunami, but then when we go it is already 90% recovered so it is quite good... went back to cruise at abt 6pm... then we prepared for the Captain's Gala Dinner Nite... where we actually wear formal dressing... and had dinner at the Chinese Restaurant, there is Buddha Jumps Over The Wall... and other delicious food... enjoy sia... after that, we went to watch movie, Lemon Snicket's Series Of Unfortunate Events, which was quite "lame" to me... then as i m pretty tired i went to sleep while Joanna went to watch movie, The Phantom Of The Opera...

4th Day:
We actually slept till late morning... then we decided to go for swimming, but then when we went there, there were many Indians occupying every part of the swimming pool and also the Jacuzzi... haiz... so we decided to have our lunch... then after lunch we went to pay for our bills and also collect our passport before we went to have Ice Cream at the Galeto... then we played some arcade games and met a guy from Singapore, and he is actually goin to study in Ngee Ann Poly, as the 3 of us are very boring we decided to walk ard before we proceeded to the Picture House for movie, Lemon Snicket's Series Of Unfortunate Events, as we missed the front part... then watched for 30 mins, we decided to go off to pack our luggages and wash up before the check out... lastly, we had dinner at Western Restaurant, where they serve very delicious and exquisite food... hmm.. nice... before we actually starts our disembarkment at the Lido... when we go in, OMG, the place was actually crowded with Indians... even when we took our seat, we are actually surrounded by the Indians... then the MC actually went down the list of the nationality that were in the cruise... and she skipped "I"... and they went "India, India..." the whole place was so noisy... and when she asked for volunteer to sing the nationality songs, 2 Indian kids went down n they sang their National Song, and we were like surrounded by Indians standing up and we sitting down, feeling abit of awkward we also stand up... haiz... so scary, as if i actually went to India... lolx...

Overall, i really enjoyed myself, but if i m to go with a bigger group of friends i think it will be much more better sia... Hope we can go for tour sometime...

Went to NUS School of Computing early in the morning... tot i could make my way there easily, but ended up i took a longer way to reach the School of Computing... the talk was quite beneficial for me, but then i still dun really understand how the system works... never mind i think i will take it as it goes... after the talk, we had a tour ard the School of Computing, the Student Associates brought us to places where we will usually go, and also tell us about exams and the orientation camp and week... After a long walk, we went back to Lt27 and had our refreshments plus registering of orientation camp... too bad, i can't make it due to work... Made a friend there, so overall still quite good la...

When home already, then got my mum's reminder to pack my clothes for the cruise tomolo... hahahax... packed till now, then done with it... hope i will have a great fun then... This also mean i will not be updating my blog till wed or thurs ba... hehex... see ya then...

Went for a haircut today, ended up my hair style is different from the previous one, due to the lady who helped me do the hairstyle before is not there, then another one replace her and cut differently... haiz... but still look ok la... keke...

After haircut, went for shopping ard before goin home... took 105 bus home, boarded the bus and wanted to find a place... then there was this granny who is in front of me, wanted to take a seat already, then i tot of moving forward somemore, but suddenly she did a emergency brake, because she saw a friend, causing me to hit onto her, and my toe so pain... tot nothing happen to my toe, i din look at it, until i felt very very pain... then... sob sob... i realised tat my toe is actually bleeding... argh
~!!... reached the bus stop i got down of the bus, and took a closer look, OMG... my toe nail actually crack in the middle and was lifted up... so scary... the blood keep on flowing out... but i can't do anything, jus to endure it till i reached home... sob sob... now i dunno wat i shld do, clean the wound with Dettol liao... but then i see my toe nail lifted up, cannot be shifted down... dunno wat to do sia... sob sob...

Today did nothing, staying at home and slack as usual... suddenly tot of having omelette so went down to buy the ingredients... with ham and crab stick... it looks good to me... keke... boring day with nothing to do... haiz... hope these kind of days will passed fast... next week onwards should be a more busy week... yeah~!!...

Watched "The Beautiful Illusions"... exciting sia... but abit funny though... anyway, tomolo is the finale... will be waiting excitedly for the ending... keke

Try out Pilates today... hmm actually not much workout, jus some stretching here and there... then also it actually help to relax one's mind... we were actually late for lessons by 15 mins due to someone missing the bus... haiz... but nvm la, i think they din do much in the front... after the lesson we went to International Plaza for lunch as Jess tot of applying for job from some agency, but in the end we jus walked ard the building w/o finding it... then we decided to go somewhere else to walk... then ended up walking passed lots of streets, walking from tanjong pagar MRT all the way to Tian Hock Keng then to Far East Square then to Chinatown Point... long journey sia... then ended up taking bus back to Toa Payoh and have coffee session @ Starbucks... before we say goodbye, as Joanna need to work at nite...

By the way, Happy Birthday Bloggy... 1 year and 3 days old... keke...

Happy Mother's Day...

Woke up with the whole body aching again... phew... so pain... today is mother's day of course we go to somewhere better to have breakfast rather than coffeshop, we went to a air-conditioned coffeeshop... keke... Ya Kun Coffeshop... haha... Went to J8 for breakfast, realised that i lost my POSB Debit card, suspect that i lost it while i dropped my wallet yesterday... haiz... then make the cancellation lo.... so sianz... when shopping after breakfast, at last, went goin off J8, i sneaked away, to buy flower for my mum, instead of buying carnation, i tot of buying sunflower... hehe... it looks much better to me... after that i sneaked back n gave my mum a surprise at her back... keke... she was delighted... then i tot of buying sunflower for my aunties and grandma, so i went back there n bought 3 diff colours of sunflowers - red, pink, yellow...

Reaching Aunt Jessy's house, we greeted grandma, and gave her the flower... din really see her expression so dunno how.... while waiting for my Aunt Jessy to be back, and my Aunt June to reached, i started to watch SCV... keke... as u see, i dun have SCV at home... so i am very enthu when goin to my Aunt Jessy's house... watched the Korean Drama - Paris Lover (Direct translation from Mandarin)... the show is great... i like it alot... Anyway, when my Aunts reached, i gave them the flowers, and they are very happy... glad to see their expressions... keke... Went swimming when my cousins actually wanted to go... have to look after them mah... so went lo... so long din swim liao... felt very tired after only 2 laps... haiz... but the kids were really having fun with their new floats and goggles... lolz... after swimming, we had dinner near the pool, BBQ cum steamboat... we actually used the portable BBQ cum steamboat, and had our mini BBQ cum steamboat by the pool... a different experience but actually this was the 2nd time we are doing it... keke... it was great and also enjoyable... need nt waste money go to restaurant, and also because my Uncle is a Malay, so also quite difficult to find Halah Restaurant... as we already went to alot of Halah Restaurant during my Grandma's birthday and past Mother's Day... lolx...

Anyway, it is a enjoyable and great Mother's Day...


My mum's sunflower...

Today is my Grandfather's death anniversary... so fast, 1 year over liao... times really past fast, and also many things happened... haiz... dun seems very happy today... i dun understand y my relatives are so relying on my father... even my grandfather's death anniversary, their father's death anniversary, also need my father to remind them, then remind them at the last min then they say him "Lao Hu Tu"... making my dad very bad mood therefore my family very unhappy... haiz... nvm, it's over liao... really hope these type of things will never happen again...

Went to work in Mediacorp, take care of a different group of students... the students were actually 3-5 yrs old... which are the smallest group of students in the Speech and Drama Class... at first i was not suppose to be in charge of the class... i m suppose to take back my usual classes, but because the other replacement did not wan to take the 3-5 yrs old students, ended up i have to take care of them... abit unhappy, but wat to do, in need of money so jus agreed... haiz...

After work, when home, then my mum tell me to buy a bag of rice... when paying for the rice, i drop my wallet, and all the cards dropped out... so frustrating then... so many stupid things happened.... hpmh... Reaching home, i drop dead at the sofa, dunno y, my legs and hands are jus so tired...

Received a call from Liling (Mediacorp), she wanted me to replace her as she is in Tan Tock Seng's Hospital, at that moment very busy, so did not ask her y is she there, hope she is fine... then a while later, Terry (Mediacorp) called me to replace her too... lolx... but too bad i already replace Liling liao... suddenly it seems like a lot of coordinators not working tomolo...

At abt 4.20pm, i made my way to NCS to sign the contract.... NCS reception environment changed... blur me, i forgot the HR consultant's name and ended up waiting at the reception till 5pm... while waiting i watched Channel Newasia... it is live broadcasting Dr Wee Kim Wee's funeral wake.... while watching, dunno y my tears suddenly dropped... at last, the HR consultant came down and passed me a few forms for me to fill in... then she went off, telling a lady to assist me, but that lady did not really assist me, she jus stand ard... did not really filled in properly the form, hope the HR consultant dun mind, after filling in every form, the lady jus took the forms and leave without giving me any notice on wat time and where to report on the reporting day... making me feel like an idiot... haiz... then i decide to email Ernest Chua the in-charge to tell me the details... Hope it will be enjoyable working there...

Received the administration package from NUS, hmm... seems like the time when i applied to Ngee Ann Poly, so many forms to fill in and to submit... but felt relieved after receiving the letter....

Purposely went down to NTU to accompany Jess for appealing her course today... meet her 1.30pm @ Boon Lay... but in the end i reached there ard 2pm... the journey is damm long and tiring... i actually doze off in the MRT... can't imagine it if i choose NTU... took a feeder bus 179 to NTU... realise that NTU is so big that it looks so quiet and empty... stopped at a bus stop which Jessica think it is a place where we can find the Administrator block easily... in the end, ask a student there and she helpfully brought us to the Admin Block which is very far from the bus stop... phew... then later reached the reception, the person say that the appeal has not started, and will have to do online...

OMG, i actually travelled all the way to Boon Lay for nothin.... argh... As this happen, of course i will ask a treat from her... keke... and she immediately accepted it... lolx... not Jess's "feng ge"... but anyway, i got a free meal... keke and some more it is Seoul Garden siax... lolx... so good... So we tried to make our way out of NTU and finally we found a bus stop after a long walk... make our way back to Jurong Point, then decide to eat there... keke... Seoul Garden here i come~!!.... first time 2 person eating Seoul Garden... feel as if i m a big eater... but then today i m really a big eater, as i actually having 3 meals in 1 big meal... keke... but it was actually very filling for me... we actually left earlier than wat we planned, because there was this group of ppl beside us to speak very loudly and rudely... i n Jess cannot take it...

We made our way to Somerset to meet Jack and Jie Larp for KTV @ Cuppage... the journey is as usual long... we both slept thru out the whole journey, until we reached raffles place... decided to go to Orchard first at we are early... then i tot of goin to House of Stars as i very long din go liao... so i told Jess abt it, and she jus say OK... but so unlucky, when we reached there the person closed for a while... haix... did not intend to wait, we made our way to Somerset MRT to meet Jie Larp n Jack... When we reached there, Jie Larp was already waiting there, we made a move first as Jack was late, but then after tat met Jack at OG... At the last few songs, Jack suddenly tot of seeing the MTV of "Zhang Xin" sang by Wu Ying Liang Ping... becuase there was this white figure appearing in the MTV when they are singing the chorus... then in another scene in the same place, the window where the white figure stands actually closed automatically... eee... it was quite scary for me... You should try to take a look at the MTV.... After the singing, we went home.... Now feeling quite tired sia...

Oh ya, tomolo goin to NCS to sign the contract liao... keke... finally got a temp job... phew...


Got this book from Navy... so cool sia...

Jus reached home from the chalet... very tired now... due to long distance driving and also the mistake i made jus now... haiz... Sorry guys~!!...

It was Jonathan's chalet, did not went to Aranda Country Club before so very enthu (Kiasu la)... lolx... but anyway, the chalet dun seems to be as big as i think it is... but overall it is a total air-conditioned chalet with nice furnitures and bathroom... We actually sabo-ed Jonathan after the cake cutting and then gave him the present we bought... it actually looks nice on him... lucky...

At abt 12am we made our way home, due to too many ppl, and my car cannot fit in, some took taxi home... as it is still early so i tot of fetching jess home... did not really knw the way, but with Kenneth's help, i knw the way liao... but bad thing happened after that, when jess reached home, i dunno how to go back to Toa Payoh... and i make a silly turn to some "ulu ulu" place... but later luckily i still able to find the expressway home, thanks to the guys' help... and finally made home at 1.30am... phew~!!

I actually very happy today, I applied to NUS liao.... successfully... and I also received a reply for the job at NCS... great~!!... Suddenly i seemed to have throw away a big stone from my brain.... keke... at least there will be something to be occupied during my last 3mths of holiday before i start Uni... haiz...

Recently, due to something happening, i wish i can talk to that person abt my feelings... but then i dun seems to have the courage to talk to tat person... maybe i still need time ba... but then i dunno will i be late...

Heard about the news of Dr Wee Kim Wee, ex-President of Singapore, passed away in the morning... was actually feeling quite sad and also a pity that Singapore actually lose a good leader... My impression of Dr Wee: He is a person with a very "ci xiang" look, very friendly and also a humble person... he is actually 1 of my idol President... the other idol President is the late Mr Ong Teng Cheong.... the both of them are similar in some ways, but also have their ways of communicating and helping Singapore citizens.... I would like to take this opportunity to send my condolences to Dr Wee's family... Maybe i will go visit Istana House tomolo to pay tributes to Dr Wee...

Former Singapore President Wee Kim Wee dies at age 89
State flags on all government buildings to be flown at half-mast
Late Dr Wee Kim Wee's passing a great loss to the nation: President Nathan
Late Dr Wee Kim Wee an outstanding and well-loved President: PM Lee
MFA remembers late Dr Wee Kim Wee as excellent diplomat
Public can pay respects to late Dr Wee at Istana on Tuesday and Wednesday
Family, friends, Singaporeans pay tributes to ex-President Wee Kim Wee
Charity always at forefront of late President Wee's endeavours: NCSS

Dunno whether i can actually get the job at NCS, because if i have the job, i need to take leave for 3 days... haiz... hope not because of the 3 days i lose the job... u all may find it funny, how come i suddenly can go NCS and work... it is because my uncle yesterday actually called me and say that it is better to work in NCS... so he actually let me off from his company... felt so happy, but also guilty that i actually did not help him out... hope he can find a replacement soon...

Today lucky me, i get to watch 5566 "Shao Nian Te Gong Dui" again... becuase my dad actually go work on a Labour Day PUBLIC HOLIDAY lo... so frustrated with it... dunno wat those customers are thinking abt... they need rest so does my father... blehz... then tomolo my father goin to work again... so sianz... but i m actually very proud with my father's working attitude... he never say stop and he never say "NO" to his customers... Way to go, Dad~!!...

Oh ya, Johnathan, i got my NUS letter with me, OK.... stop physco-ing me not having my NUS letter.... blehz

Yesterday too tired liao... so did not update my blog... yesterday was the most tiring working day for me.... Because yesterday the parents actually get to sit in the lessons... so there are alot for us to do... We had to organise the parents into the classes their children are in... then have to talk sense into some AP(Attitude Problem) parents.... they think they very rich, then we actually have to compromise to wat they actually asked for... so idiotic... making our job so tiring... when they din know that they actually get to have enjoy air-con in classrooms while we had to sit under the hot sun... hpmh... The weather is jus so terrible... did nt help us at all... we jus walk a few steps and we are already sweating like hell... at the end of the day, we were all so relieved and also tired, esp our legs because we did not get to sit alot... haiz...

Went to NPCC meeting after that, reach too early, tot will have some cool air in KFC... but seems like the air-con is not working very properly... arghx... so crazy... and meeting started 30 mins later... but it is usual la... sitting in the group of CIs/WCIs.... i was thinking, shld i not be here... because all of them are newbies... lolx... not tryin to say they are lousy, but then seems like i m old liao... haha... as Sanly is one of the coordinator of the NCO course, we had to have another secretary to write the minutes for the meeting... as usual, me n johnathan will be pushing the respondsibilty to each other... ended up with "scissors, paper, stone" and i lost... sob sob... maybe because i worked too much earlier, i was actually shivering while writing the minutes... hahaha.... thinkin abt minutes i realised i have not type out yet... lolx... after the meeting, of course it will be units' meeting... lolx... CIs/WCIs will be gatherin in their units and talked abt their unit's parade... and therefore drag till like 10+ then i can have my dinner... but it seems more like supper liao... haha.... ard 12+ i finally drag myself home and have a good bath... phew
But now my legs and hands are very pain and like no strength to move ard...